in previous trials of life i have found a great way for me to overcome spiritual vexes....i tattoo something symbolic on my person as a reminder. i need reminders.
when i look at my most recent tattoos on both forearms (see pic ↑), i am reminded that outward expressions of anger are prohibited....no hitting a pillow, no exercise, no yelling, no 'venting'....those, to me, are just practicing anger. (what happens the day none of your 'release options' are available?) i am MUCH more aware of my feelings and their power over the mind due to my visual reminders. they remind me that in order to be what i believe is truly human, i must know what my anger is about, what part of my soul it comes from, accept it, appreciate it (for it is teaching a lesson in self), and then change it to love as an outward expression. it is difficult sometimes, and i do not always have a completly successful implementation....but i am ALWAYS aware when and where i am not succeeding. it is a great reminder....and it works well for me.
well...it is time (at 6:00 pm central time zone, tomorrow!) for another....two.
the next one(s) is a reminder to stay true to love...no matter what! it is a reminder to stay open with my soul, and never suppress ANY of the love i have to give. it was originally intended to be a symbol for my most recent love, and in order to greet (with a smile) the pain i feel through the demise of said love...i am destined to get it now...for me. for me to accept that my love was not enough last time. for me to remember to never be afraid of loving that wholy again. for me to give to a new love...wherever she may be right now. please do not get me wrong...it meant the world to me not too long ago...but it will mean even more to have it just for me...and then the day i feel safe sharing the meaning of it with a new love...well...that will be the day that i was born to have.
just as i type this i am beginning to feel the thick air rise from my lungs...i am beginning to hear the trees saying beautiful things again...i feel the energy......and i am excited to start my newest journey.....loving.
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